another day wasted

just like dat...wat a slacker i have become *ketuk diri sndrik*

woke up early for the 830am class where i have to lead the discussions
agak berlari2 anak jugak la takut lambat only to find dat half of the group is still missing in action
not dat i mind, at least i'm not the last one to arrive
cute preceptor..sekali tgk mcm Matt Damon, dua kali tgk mcm Brad Pitt zaman memuda
hoho cuci mata smbil berdiskusi penyakit paru2 hoho

decided to skip lectures n came back for another discussion session later in the afternoon
eat the leftover pasta for brunch while rerunning GG again
no new epi tis week, bummer!

plan to wash hair but then napping center in the brain nudge against desicion making part
short nap wouldn't hurt right?
huh, right! nap la sgt smpai 5 mins to 3 o clock br bukak mata n group discussion at 330pm!
looks like hair washing have to wait til tonite la

no new Grey's tonite *sigh*

making plans for the 'long' weekend
totally skipping tmr morning lectures, prolly go for a visit to Market Mall
Saturday got Marrybrown *halal yo!* picnic n bowling at Chinook
Sunday go tobagoning!!!
bile nk catch up study ni Dalilah oi?!

arrr! set sail on the Seventh Seas y'scallywag!

pirate tongues totally rocks my socks off!
how arrr ya, matey? rums all 'round!!

no thanks to miss nodee n her mister bf n zek juger
now saye pon terikut2 main Mousehunt
adeih, parah la
jap, nk kna blow the horn for the hunt
15 mins wait time is up hehe

later peeps!

i curse the day you were born!

oh i am so pissed off!!
damn you Youtube for suspending all the accounts dat had graciously supplied me with the great Grey's scenes
now all my fav scenes dh kna delete!!! *cries*
stupid infringement rules
i still buy the DVDs ok? original one lagik!
anyone can teach me how i can make short clips from the avi files?

eiiii! Rogers Wireless tak abes2 nk suck ppls money tau!
seb baik x kna MI tgk this month punyer bill
CAD70! My God!
usually about CAD4o per month since tak guna sgt pon, just convenient if you have one
ni seme sbb main sms mase kat States aritu la ni
they charge 60 cent per sms?sms to Calgary number jugak pdhal
bloody expensive!!! tau la roaming tp aritu mase blk mesia roaming jugak, siap calling2 lagi tp x de smpai 70 dolar bill aku!
dh la i check nk upgrade to iPhone smpai CAD400
kalu daftar baru CAD199 jork
diskriminasi okehhhh!!
dh la tak leh break 3 yrs punye contract, nnt kna denda lagi CAD200
mereka2 di mesia, bersyukur la dgn Celcom n Maxis n Digi etc
guna hp kat sini sucks giler!!

moments of heaven on earth

OH.MY.FARKING.GOD!
BEST Grey's episode ever!!!!



no doubt i cried buckets watching this ending

one shouldn't feel for a serial killer who slits his knife thru 5 young woman throat just because he wanted to know how it would felt
but Meredith being all dark and twisty inside decide dat even such person should deserve a little degree of compassion
dat's why she show up at his execution
it's touching to see how scare he was when death is imminent
how he wanted to see at least one face dat isn't filled with hate n rage for wat he had done

and miracle indeed for the little boy
and Bailey, how she crossed the line for this one patient
makes you question yourself, how far would you go for your patient?

the look in Christina face when Derek came knocking at her door telling her Meredith needs her
the moment she realise dat how silly and how long the fight has been dragging on
who r they kidding themselves?
Derek is right, they both need each other to freak about something happening in their life
for her, dating McArmy
so she set aside her pride and be there for her bestfriend when she needed her the most
just what a true friend would do

as for Mcdreamy, i have nothing but admiration and totally CINTA for you!
he didn't get why Meredith went to William execution, heck he loathes William's ilk but he showed up outside of prison for her
and when he knows he can't be everything for her
he went to get the one person Meredith need, her best friend
now, dat's a keeper

reminds me of one person who did the same thing for me once
to this person, just know i really appreciate wat u did
altough i rarely shows such appreciation of those little things you ever shows me

i leave you with my fav quote from the episode

Meredith: "I know it feels wrong, it feels wrong on so many levels I can't even count them but there are no case in any medical books that tells you how to deal with this kind of situation"

positive reinforcement

i had a good feeling when i finally hand in the papers
well maybe a bit guilty for using only one third of the allocated time
but the prev experience hold me back
i mean, anything could happen rite?

so, i keyed in the lock
the one sheet i dread n anxious to see wat's printed on it
one glance and dat relieved smile slowly creep up my tiny mouth
spreading it into a huge grin of self satisfaction
heart leap in joy, tears brimming the eye
a small victory, a huge meaning

i finally think i can do this
i finally believe i can make it through

you know you love me

finally finished my Gossip Girl marathon
up till the latest episode yo!
now i'm hooked
seronot jugak tgk upper east side berbitching2 ini

pity them
they have all the money in the world
tp hidup tunggang langgang giler
oh well, u can't have everything in life kan?

till then, XOXO

serves you right

you have no one else to blame n be mad at except yourself
i didn't rob you of your chances, you yourself gladly took it all away

i hate you for making me feel guilty when i really shouldn't
i hate it you know me so well, you just know which button to push

you have no right to dictate how i should live my life
you denied yourself dat right when you choose to walk out of my life

you know it yourself
but you couldn't help feeling the way you feel right now, dun u?
consider it the price u have to pay
n if it makes u feel better, know dat i pay a higher price
i always do, still do...

reach out the hand

first day of school

and i'm already ponteng lalalala
so much for starting anew n putting extra effort considering tis next 2 course not a strong suit for me
but heck, it's just introductory lectures n the sucky ADT exam is now online for a month
how cool is dat? online exam dat's open for a month, with no invigilating wat so ever...Dr Wiki la pe lagi haha

so anyhu...am still throwing away precious time watching the upper east side of Manhattan berbitchy2 sesame sendrik

tetiba saya rase nk ade bucket list of my own
mcm menarik kan?
list of things i wanna do before i die
since u dun know when u actually gonna die, u be more looking forward to complete each dream/task/fill in ur blanks
just so when u look back, u actually do things u wanna do....sort of reminder

first one on the list - new year countdown at NY Times Square being kissed silly by the love of my life. Winter in NY can be as unforgiving as Canada so must have him warm me up plus i need protection from the drunken n high crushing seas of human *note to self - ni nk kna ade HIM dulu br boley achieve*

second one would be bungee jumping!
the higher the better <-- adrenaline junkie
more on the list would be more adrenaline pumping activities - white river rafting, yg jump from the plane tu org panggil ape ek? yes...skydiving~
oh saya sgt teruja with the ideas!

before i forgot, europe tour is definitely on the list

and yes, i wanna work for Doctors Without Borders if i get the chance

wat else? ran out of idea
more like mls nk pikir dh sbb nk smbg tgk XOXO haha
but keep tuned in, the list will be updated from time to time
mayb when i got the time i'll put it up on the side bar

oh yeah, i won't be doing it in dat order...when the opportunity arise, i'll go for it =)

the extra day

i should really
1. be doing my laundry
2. unpack my bags n clean up my room
3. prepare for the new semester dat starts tomorow -ala, dh nk skolah blk ker? -

instead i am
1. curling up in my duvet *kasi can la weih, lps rindu 2 minggu tak tido with my pinky hearts*
2. trying to finish up Eclipse, the 3rd installation of Twilight saga, quarter more to go since i started yesterday on the plane enroute back
3. while running the Gossip Girl back to back from the very first episode of the first season to the current episode of the current season...not much, just about almost to 40 episode with 1 hr per episode, there goes 40 hrs of my life membazir ke jln kelaghaan...bet the devils are njoying themselves to the max knowing this

time to go home...

never thought i would missed seeing the white blanket of snow
after 2 weeks of sun n occasional rain n freedom from winter wear bundle
it almost welcoming to be back to the cold, unforgiving Calgary
maybe tis place is becoming more of a home now

but yeah, i miss my pinky hearts duvet
n Missy Moo n Belle
they must be excited to add Baby Sham as their partner in crime

but a break from all things familiar n routine is always good
an escapism
gives you the chance to miss things you've taken for granted, doesn't?

swipe away

oh i so wanted dat BOSE dock for my iTouch
n dat half price FCUK sweater
n another 2 or 3 Coach bag
n dat lovely Marciano dress dat is 60% off
n dat bright red Banana Rebuplic peacoat in my size dat's half price for the day
wat a pity dat CK jeans doesn't come in my size or the USD20 Guess jeans

everything is soooooooo fucking cheap!!!!
n soooo many choices i go very rambang mata just thinking about it
oh why la u have to max out today my darling?
so spoil the mood to go explore the whole mall
bleeding heart weyh kalu jumpe brg berkenan di hati tp x leh beli sbb x de immediate available funds

i am so coming back to settle tis unfinished business
no need to be Vegas
any other US city with a huge outlet mall would be ok
n let's hope by dat time CAD stronger than USD
totally gonna make sure my magic card is fully functional with lots n lots of credits
anyone wanna join?

the rebel in me

who's to say when the new year starts eh?
live according to ur rules...much much better!

many takes it a good time to start fresh
resolutions, achievements to go after, disappointments to leave behind
perhaps perhaps perhaps

as for me, last year promise was gloriously broken
and stay broken, not even bothering to even try fixing it
wat a sore loser, can't even keep my own promise to meself
regret? i have learn trying not to have them

wat's next in store?
i have no idea nor expectation
just going with the flow
que sera sera wat ever will be will be lah

oh, to 2009 may i propose a toast of welcome
*glass clicking*